Them Today!

 My precious after the hair cut! Uros...Muah!

Mr 2 and a Half

Two and a half tomorrow and already feel like he's growing up so fast its hard for me to keep up with him. I wish that I could stay home and raise him and just watch him grow. He is such an amazing kid. So smart, so understanding, so loving. There are those bluff cry moments but he makes my heart melt. Feels almost as if it was just yesterday that I was holding him in my arms after giving birth to him. Who would have known. My little precious one. I love you sweet heart. muah!

We'll Hold on

Lord I send this to you right now.
I have no where to go to, no one to turn to.
You are faithful, your love is eternal and forever you're God alone.
Teach me Lord to trust in you to handle this for me.
I will not look to the left or to the right but I will look to you.
I will look up to the mountains where my help comes from and my help comes from the lord the maker of heaven and earth.
I declare this today Lord.
Lord fix this for me.
You're my God, my God alone in you I will trust
Psalms 31:19 I mediate on this father. How great is your goodness which you have stored up for those who fear you. Which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you. Lord be good to me today and handle this. Take my yoke Lord it is too heavy for me. I don't know how to fix this. Fix it for me I ask in Jesus name. Amen

Heavenly Echoes - renewed

Love these guys to bits and missing them like crazy.
So glad that they are going public again. Time to get these guys their own recording. Wouldn't it be rad?
They killed it!
One day mafatu!
Great job guys. So proud of you lot. Missing my crazy people like crazy!

Swallowing my vomit

This week the very same people that I had cursed and condemned and swore I would ever have anything to do with I went bowing back to swallowing my pride and asking for their help. And they came through. And again coming through in a different situation. Do I still hold all that anger towards them? Can I think about them without thinking about what they had done? Have I still not forgiven them?
How did I get into this situation? Can I feel that lump in my throat? The heaviness in my heart? The bile coming into my mouth? Why would I still have that if I had prayed and forgiven them? I ask for forgiveness today. Please forgive me Lord as I forgive those who have sinned against me. Fill me with your love and cleanse me today. Like a dog going back to his vomit verse comes to mind. How does a dog return to his vomit? How disgusting! How low must the dog be to be returning to his vomit.

Left Behind

For an IT person currently feeling pretty left behind in this world of ipods, ipads, iphones and all other gadgets. Any tech geek you read of has either the ipad, ipod, macbook, iphone or the nexus, galaxy sIII and some sort of other gadget. Time to do something about it. Lets start with a tablet.
After spending the entire night watching Scandal on Clark's ipod I now look forward to buying myself a gadget. One fore me, one for Jitoko and a Leapfrog for Jaydon.
So whats been holding me back all this time?
More like finding the right gadget. Each android later has a newer version and each apple item the more recent release rendering the one in your hand one version older and closer to being more obselete.
I was thinking about it the other night. We have become so consumed by gadgets like scavengers looking for food we eagerly await the next release. We suddenly can;t remember what life was like without these things? I now wonder, what about those times when everyone was saying the computer spelled the 666. Nobody could have envisioned anything like these times. And yet this revolution is no where close to slowing down. Its about to explode into something even bigger. Now bigger harder and harder for people to catch up. And yet we run to get the next this or the next that.

Availability Display

Its really just the code that Bill wants me to write that I have no idea how to do. Have checked everywhere.
For some reason C# does not have a display for this that can allow the kind of layout that is already there in the vbscript page. So agonising. How can this even be possible? Takes the Availability project back by another month. How is it even possible. I thought new code was always backward compatible or an improvement of the old. There must be some sort of code somewhere I'm probably just searching the wrong thing. All in all I have to wait until next week before I can get any sort of advice from Colin. Hence all these web browsing and blogging!

Cluttered Mess

Uncluttering my brain again because it full of too much stuff.
Maybe putting everything down on paper will help me figure out what exactly is getting me agitated like this.
Its definitely not the staying up until 1am because of the 1am was the uncluttered brain causing sleepless nights. is it the trip to nz? The loan payment for daddy or the payment on the car? Whatever it is, it needs to go so that I can get back into work mode. So not in the mood for work or doing anything in particular. Just wanting to stay home and raise my little boy. Its probably the disappointment of not getting the laptop but even that is a small thing, we can get it another time. is it the nearing of aji's one year and the solemn feeling of being left of another gathering. it all started when I heard aunty Kamal was in hospital. Its starting to make me realise that aji really is not around and her family is falling apart and they need God and I need to go so that I can minister God and just be there for them and bless them and encourage them. Thoughts in the back of my head about daddy. I dreamt the other night that kaka Karuna was in a coffin again at the gathering in new Zealand. What is it about his gathering in new Zealand that is causing alot of stir.

Sudden Death

I know she had died but all this time I thought maybe it she was sick or something until Deborah told me this morning. So sorry for your loss Kata.
Tragic Accident
As I read this today I think about sudden death. About tragedy. About how people die and about dying.
So many thoughts come to mind. Was it their day to go? Was this how God meant it?
Did they die before their time?Amazing thing life is, it can be gone in a second and then what?
Do you see God right away? Does he give you the chance to make it right? I said to my boss some time ago you gotta hope that God gave him that opportunity right before taking him but I don't know that? How can I proclaim that? Did I just say that to make her feel better?
What about those of us that die? What is dying like? Do we see God right away or do we go to a place until like the bible says and the dead in christ shall rise. Where does that leave aji? Is that what's been bothering me all this time?Is this all about my not know where her soul has gone? And then what about daddy? Am I ready to let him go? We go through life thinking we have all the time in the world to do this and do that and eventually get there but we forget that the bible says our days are numbered. So we live life doing whatever it is that we want to do not paying any attention to the important and the immediate. We become self centred and self righteous. yet if we die right now would we be heading to heaven or hell?

Not Well

Daddy is not well.
He isn't just not eating and walking about much but he is slowly shrivelling up.
I look at him and see that his spirit is fiesty but his body is too tired.
It scares me to think about it but lately thoughts keep coming to my head about what would happen if I were to lose mum or dad.
Maybe its only because of Deborah losing her nena and Kata's mum dying so tragically but I look at them everyday and I wish I could help.
I think about why I came down, its just said that they prefer it this way.
My only prayer is Lord, you save him first.
Help me honour them Lord, show me how to bless them.
Show me how to minister to them father give me the words to say.
You can take him but you've got to save him.I love you daddy, Happy Father's day.

Scandal Scandal Scandal

So much for sitting up until midnight to complete watching scandal my brain is literally switching off right now. Scandal Scandal scandal. You were just not good for me.
Totally enjoyed sitting and watching it on the ipod. Now I want my very own tablet. Next on my wish list or to do list or things to buy list right after sorting out our passports and sorting in NZ in October, December, February and Aus in Mar - globetrotter and all. Putting this into writing Lord because I'm going to believe that you're going to make it happen. yes I should have done this earlier but I didn't plan to go to the family reunion but its being bugging me lately. We may never get this opportunity again. If I had gone to the wedding I could have spent time with aji. Now I'm going to sit by and have another one of those if only moments. I'm going, please provide I pray!

Friday Night Photos

Can't believe that its Tuesday already and there are still no photos online from Friday nights programs. Come on people....Yes we should have had our camera on that night. Infact we did have our camera just got lost somewhere between when the car left with the first lot of food and when I went to look for it during the Brazillian team item. So much so that I ended up missing the entire item. Emotions ran wild that day, came to a point that I thank God that Jini did not come to pick me up otherwise I was ready to tell her to stuff it and take over change she she thought she could do a better job at it. Its so hard trying to organise things when you have people standing on the sidelines and literally slicing up your every action and decision with a knife because they know information about everybody and everything. Didn't help that people we had planned things with did not show up to help with the cooking. Why is it that people feel the need to be incharge and in control of everything. Why can't people step up and lead or shut up and let others lead instead of stadning by and literally ripping things apart with their words and actions.

Code Review

Asked our consultant to review by windows service code and he literally broke down every single line into pieces. Now I have to rewrite my code. waiyave...oh well atleast its a good learning experience. Gotta get my hands on some object programming.
Some links that I have to pay attention to:
Single responsibility principle

String builder

Naming Convention

Fair Play Brazil

We're hosting them next Friday. Ecstatic.
Tom Tiko you better bring the whole team otherwise I don't know sara...22 memeber team plus Tom and his family. Fingers crossed he brings everyone. The word already went out on Facebook thanks to some people, so had to ask the church to step in and help with the tea and chow.
Play Fair Brazil flies with Fiji’s flag carrier airline

Deep Dark Thoughts

Sometimes at the back of my head I wonder, who has subscribed to my blog without my knowing....scary shit

i3 Probook 4540

Lord I need this, make the sale on our behalf I pray.
Sadly I didn't end up getting this but glad that I had extra money to host and handle Friday night.

Jaydon moments

In mum's kitchen, Jaydon has the fridge open as if looking for something. 
Mum to me: dua e vaqara e dua na ere e mini qaca....
Jaydon looks at mum as if he understood everything she just said with this wide grin. 
Jaydon: I see someting...nena I see someting...hahahaha. 
He had found the chocolates that nena thought she had properly hidden...he's too fast for you mum....hehe

Two and a half next month. 
Unbelievable how fast time flies.
Such a blessing darling. 
I love you so much

Need a macbook

Man I wish I knew someone who wants to sell off their old macbooks for cheap.
The ios can only be developed via a macbook.
So would be great if I could get my hands on one.
Any. Turns out the cheapest of the lot, the mac mini is $599 US...sheesh...

Love knows No End

Can't seem to get enough of this song!

A tribute to Julia Childs

Julia's Best-Ever Brownies

 (adapted from 'Baking with Julia' with Dorie Greenspan)

Ingredients:

1 1/4 cups sifted all-purpose flour

1 teaspoon salt

8 ounces unsalted butter

4 ounces unsweetened chocolate, coarsely chopped

2 ounces bittersweet chocolate, coarsely chopped

2 cups sugar

1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract

4 large eggs, room temperature

Directions:

1. Put a rack in the center of the oven and pre-heat to 350 degrees.

2. Sift together the flour and salt; set aside.

3. Melt the butter and all of the chocolate together the in the microwave in a large bowl.

4. Add one cup of the sugar to the chocolate-butter mixture and stir for 30 seconds. Stir in the vanilla.

5. Mix the remaining sugar and the four eggs in an electric mixer bowl for a few seconds until just combined.

7. Little by little, pour half of the sugar-egg mixture into the chocolate mixture, stirring gently but constantly with a rubber spatula so that the eggs don't set from the heat.

8. Whip the remaining sugar and eggs in the electric mixer until they are thick, pale, and doubled in volume, about three minutes.

9. Using the rubber spatula, gently fold the whipped eggs into the chocolate mixture.

10. When the eggs are almost completely incorporated, gently fold in the dry ingredients.

11. Pour and scrape the batter into an unbuttered 9-inch square baking pan.

12. Bake the brownies for 22-26 minutes, they should rise a little and the top will look dark and dry.

13. Make a small cut in the the center of the brownies after about 22 minutes to check for doneness. They'll be perfect if they are just barely set and still gooey.

14. Remove from oven and cool in the pan on a rack before cutting. 

Put your Trust

1 Timothy 6:17-18

King James Version (KJV)

¹⁷ Charge them that are rich in this world, that they be not highminded, nor trust in uncertain riches, but in the living God, who giveth us richly all things to enjoy;
¹⁸ That they do good, that they be rich in good works, ready to distribute, willing to communicate;

Learning today not to put my trust anywhere else but in God. Learning that not only is worry not from God but it is a form of atheism because I'm saying ok God you can't seem to be doing anything its up to me to do something about it.
Realising today that God has my bills in mind because he promises to take care of me.
Humans are the only form of creation that worry. All creation trusts in him to provide and he provides for them meticulously so he will definitely provide for me because he has my best interests at heart. So why worry. Why the need to worry?
Also learning that anything more important in my life than God will bring about anxiety in me so obviously if I am worrying than I am placing that thing that I am worrying about more important than God.
Today, I purpose in my heart not to worry. Today I put everything aside and trust in you God because you are my life.
Today I put aside all the bills, the loans and the things that I want to buy and trust in you to take care of me. its only, all because of you and I trust in you today.
if I think it then I live it. Its important for me today to think things into existance then only will I have it.

Worry is really just a form of atheism, because every time you worry, you're saying, “It all depends on me.”

As long as you love anything more than God, that thing or person or item will become a source of anxiety.

Another course

So happy. Boss just paid for this course:
The ultimate iOS and Android app design course
Not sure what the conditions are but just happy because this is going to open door for me not just at work but on my own.
I can create apps for the Google store...ecstatic!
Now I just need my own ipad and tablet to get a feel of it and test out my apps.
Lesson 2 and progress. Now imagine if I combine this with the Russell Brunson thingy...going places here!

App for Noticeboard

Loving the new app for noticeboard allows me to copy and paste lines/ phrases content from any webpage into my noteboard.

Real good for brainstorming

Python Course

My first Python Course

Lesson 1 completed